The last few weeks I have been so emotional!! My husband agrees and has noticed. It is a combination of things I am sure-trying to get pregnant for the last year and a half and being unsuccessful, trying to know what path to go down (whether fertility or adoption route) and rapping up and dealing with things at work.
I have always wanted a family. I was told that I would not be able to have a child because of my Gardner's Syndrome. Adoption was always an option that I thought I would have to use. I have since found out otherwise. I talked to a genetics counselor and he went over all my medical "stuff" and said that Gardner's Syndrome would not stop me from becoming a mother. A whole new world of options opened up to me! But of course like so many I had high hopes that things would be easy and that once I heard those magic words that Gardner's Syndrome would not stop me...well...I would magically conceive.
If only it were that easy. <sigh> It only got harder. I guess I should start off by saying that I have been to my dr. a few times and she had some basic blood tests done on me and they came back that chemically there is no reason why I shouldn't conceive. Great! But then to tell the hubby that HE needed to get checked. That is where things have gotten dicey. It still has yet to be done. We go back and forth on what we want. Pursue adoption or fertility issues. When I say "we" I mean the hubby. I know what I want to do...I just want him on board and he sees adoption as the best route. We are still talking about it and everyday we get a bit closer to what we both want and how we both feel. I think we are closer to an answer... It will be in the works the next few weeks as things settle down. It is a compromise that I think I can live with. More on that later as it pans out.
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